Me, Myself and I

Where myself is no longer me

This artwork was almost entirely communicated to me and through me. It was performed mechanically in the sense that my hands moved and drew, the colors were picked by themselves and the composition was constructed almost without my intervention. Fine tunings of composition and color balance involved traces of contemplative intellect. The Quadrangle of Creation might give you more insight on how this process works.

Retrospective self-awareness

Only after the majority of the artwork was finished did I realize that this was my own self portrait. This is who I am today: very angry, as anger usually covers behind tremendous amount of sadness, pain and vulnerability. That pain is part of me as an ear is part of a face… The Observer within me is distant and underlying but at reach, I just have to be creative and gentle in order to get to him and through him. He is at complete peace and with significant presence…

Me, myself and I – The Codex

Blue is generally wisdom, harmony, observation. Red is generally anger, misery, pain. Yellow is generally an interstate, a mediate state of mind, passive control, a state of a mental and/or spiritual process in the go. The whole composition is aspiring upwards. I don’t want to die like that – angry and sad.

So much of weight I carry on my shoulders, so much of pain I buried deep inside…At times the swamp of anguish and despair is revealed by a trauma or separation and I almost faint out of fear of the sheer magnitude, scope and depths of darkness that is me… Jesus Christ… May I shed this burden from inside, diffuse it, enlighten it… May I be able to help others do the same one day…