A Shattered Dream of Breakthrough

Fears of breakthrough…

I want to make it as much as I fear success. What will I become under the influence of achievement? Will I remain a moral man? Will I continue to strive for the spiritual and wholesome or will decadence take hold of my soul and turn me into a buttery and manipulative Ego-shark? Sometimes I feel that I fear success so much because I do not rely on myself to remain spiritually stable afterward. Success is a state of mind, one which I am not accustomed to yet.

Aftermath of shattered dreams

Unconsciously I shatter my dreams with my bare hands, I follow the known routes of mediocrity even though I am highly capable and was born with something to deliver to the world. I avoid responsibility because it chases me out of my sheltered hiding place. But this dream will not be shattered, this time I will realize it.